grrrrrrrrrrr frustration

I want to slap him……………

he comes online saying he is naked, he is hot and he is horny (has been all day)

I know that cybersex is not his thing but I try to get some response from him

I won’t be too obviously sexy to begin with, I will just ease him into being sexual after all he has no trouble discussing sex online

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Do you have a window open?

?

is there a window open in your room? can you feel a breeze?

no, hot

ok where can you feel it?

on my bum

imagine its my hands

would rather they were on my cock……….sucking

licking?

yes please

and where are my hands?

on my bum

and your hands?

either side of your head

on my shoulders or holding my head?

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sorry playing solitaire

cheers

trying to make myself tired

ok so you prefer cards to imagining what I could do to you?

I’m tired going to bed

night x

if he can’t be arsed to indulge me then sod him………I switched off both messengers (something I never do)………maybe he might notice my sudden uncharacteristic departure…………..why did he even bother to say he was feeling horny grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I shall have to play with one of my toys……..and read some of my friends blogs

I have already read the following blogs tonight

yummy

ronjazz

Riff Dog

Dante

who shall I read next?

or maybe I have gone off the boil now and shall just sleep

Its Fab

Did I tell you that I joined a new website…….yes of course I did that was how I found out that Karl has been telling me porkies. So now I am on adult friend finder (aff) and on Fabswingers (fab). I hadn’t been on aff for about 9 months but I checked out my profile a few weeks ago and found that Karl was nolonger one of my friends ‘well I don’t need to talk to you on there now do I?’ was his response a few weeks ago. This week he told me

you have deleted your profile on aff

no I haven’t

but I can’t see you on my friends

because You deleted Me!

He now knows that I am also on fab because he has seen my profile and says he recognised my profile photo (he should it was taken with him on his bed). I was deliberately checking out his profile regularly and using that photo to make him realise that I was on fab and that if I have checked out his profile I would possibly have seen what his friends had said about him. I was giving him a chance to tell me that he had met them and played.  I am not his wife or even his girl friend so it isn’t going to be a problem that he is seeing other people. He just shouldn’t tell me he isn’t when I can see for myself that he is.

Anyway since I have been on the site I have been chatting to other guys. I might even be meeting one after work tomorrow. Which reminds me I have to text him to see if our meet is still on. I have chatted to Spencer a few times over the past two weeks. We seem to get on really well but he is about an hour away from me although willing to drive here. We have arranged to meet for a drink at the pub near to my work where I met Cutter a few times last summer. If our meet does go ahead and we get on really well there is a hotel next to the pub. I am planning to wear a black skirt suit see through top and stockings for this date if it happens.

Last sunday evening I had a very hot chat with Andrew.  He lives not too far from me and is single with his own place so there are possibilities for fun and games there. During our conversation he told me what would happen when he opened the door of his place if I went there. I used his words as the base for my last story ‘Master‘ which I shall continue soon. Having talked to him for hours I am looking forward to more especially as there is potential for him to become my Master for real. I am not going to rush into anything with him but he did excite me and I think if I were to go down the Master/slut road I could do worse than do it with him. We have both agreed that we are not looking for 24/7 . The more I read about D/s relationships the more I think I would like to give it a try. I can’t wait to talk to him again.

Today I have been chatting to two other men one of them from a few roads away from me (my profile says I live in a nearby city). As yet my conversations with Woody have not been of a sexual nature but he has made it clear that he wants to be up front and make sure I know that he is married. Hence he has had to vanish from my screen  twice today. OMG I have just realised who he is………..when he chats to me on Yahoo I can see his surname …..his boys were at junior school with mine…….his wife is really really pretty. Hmmm might not be such a good idea, but on the other hand could add to the thrill.

This evening I have been talking to Owl who is single and lives in a nearby city. He seems quite nice and says I sound like fun, but had to cut short our chat as he was late meeting a friend for a drink. I have not yet chatted to him but have exchanged emails with Dave who wants to take me sailing on his yacht with or without fun mmmmhe looks and sound rather nice too.

Whilst I was chatting to Woody in the early afternoon I had a visit from Karl. He had bought me a web cam. He thinks  need one! I have not used a web cam for a couple of years, which is deliberate. I got fed up with not being able to chat to any man without him asking me to lift my top or to take it off……then it would be ‘stick youe hand inside your pants’.  On occasions I quite enjoy playing on webcam for one of my lovers. But it got so that I could never have a normal conversation without these demands……I didn’t always feel like it or didn’t didn’t have the privacy as my computer was in the livingroom. I found it easier to just say I didn’t have one. I have now installed this new one but as yet not tried it.

It could come in useful but as I am using yahoo not msn for chatting with my new friends from Fab I can’t use it anyway if they are on msn. But It does mean there is potential for some cyber fun…….watch this space.

Just a little more aaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggmmmmmmmmmm

mmmmmmmm

ahhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggg

he tells me that he loves it when I type these extended letter words

it is early morning for him as I am lying on my bed preparing for the night, my hand reaching for my pussy as I read sexy blogs, sometimes I am already aroused by what I have been reading, other times he arouses me with his words as he  tells me what he wants to do to me. He asks me what I am wearing, pink satin is often the reply, sometimes teamed with pink lace knickers.

he wants me to discard the lace knickers and replace them with old ones. You may think this is because he has a penchant for bridget jones type knickers. you may or may not be right about that, but I am not concerned with that. the plan as he explains to me is that together we will be ripping into them as he fucks me.

sometimes he fucks me with his/my fingers, other times he fucks me with his hard cock. he might fuck me from behind, but more often he fucks me hard and fast. He loves to hear me moan, he loves the sound of my orgasms as I cum long and fast.

I have to place a folded towel under my hips to protect my matress, I am a gusher by the way.

He likes to lick my cunt, he wants to give me a good licking. He likes to lick the inside of my thighs, especially as I rise dripping from my morning bath as he prepares to head home at the end of the day.

but whether it is morning or late night for me I find myself  talking to him with my left hand as my right hand is busy. It isn’t easy to type left handed when that is not natural for me.

Apart from being right handed it is also very difficult to remain gramatically correct when in the throes of orgasm.

so the best I can do is fill the screen with lots of

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggg

mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

oohhoooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedsssssssssssssssssss

uuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmm

but he knows even before the extended words begin that I am having a an orgasm

the long silences are when I just can’t put a hand anywhere near the keyboard because I am so aroused

but then he also knows that when I have had an orgasm and cum back down to earth I will either fall asleep or shoot off to work having soaked in hot soapy water, where he strokes my generous breasts as he waits for me to step from the hot water, steam risng from my skin as he licks me dry. He waits while I let my hands wander over my body towelling myself dry before donning my sexy lingerie complete with stockings. he fucks my mind with his words as I dry my hair smiling at the thoughts he plants in my mind about going to work knickerless, or having  a play in the ladies wondering if any unsuspecting colleagues will walk in on me.

but mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

it is so lovely to have this twice daily ritual at the start and end of each day, mind fucking across the miles from one side of the globe to the other in micro seconds.

Adam’s Desire

I have noticed over recent months that during our conversations Adam is turning more and more to wanting to be my Dom. I don’t think he has given this a whole lot of thought but it has started coming out in our conversations. I quite like being submissive even if I am a bit bratty at times. So this feeds a desire in both of us. It is a subject I have discussed with my sweetheart and whilst we both like the idea of him being Dom to my sub we are not prepared to take it as far as a 24/7 life style. From my reading I know that even in a long distance relationship it is possible to do this 24/7.  Both Adam and my sweetheart think of it more as a game to play as part of our sex games.

After my chat with Adam this evening where he suddenly went into Dom mode with no warning and when I asked him if he wanted to do that he said yes, I feel that he could do with some guidance. He was only half hearted in his Dominating me and when I challenged him he gave in to my request at the first time of asking. Adam does not read blogs although he does read the stories I send him from time to time. So if anyone can point me in the right direction for me to find some reading material for Adam it will be interestng to see if he follows it up and does become more Dominant.

So here is the transcript of our conversation once he changed into Dom mode.

you on all fours

  no

 

  why

 

 

what with?

a horse crop

 

 

mmmmm

spanking your bare bottom

 

in between fingering you

 

 

then i want you suck me

 

 

kneel on the floorwith you red heels and black seamed hold upstake my stiff cock in your mouthand suck it hardare you sucking ityes sirnow kneel on the bed on all fours

or i’ll spank you more

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

get your vibrator out

i want you to use it on me

slow or fast

slow to start on my balls and then inside me

mmmmmmmmmm

where are you if I am on all fours on the bed

in front of you

standing up on the floor

yes sir

fuck me with it before i fuck you with it

yes sir

then i want to fuck you in each hole

i want you to beg me to

yes sir I want you to fuck me in each hole

with my cock or vib

yes please sir

are you wet

yes sir

i need to go and cum now

please can I cum too sir?

no not until i mail you in the week again

you are not to cum

please sir

on one condition

yes sir

you promise me when we meet again you’ll wear black seamed hold up

yes sir

go then and make yourself cum

 

 

as if I didnt guess

 

 

i’ll have to spank you then

mmm