Torn between two lovers twice

It seems to be my lot these days to be torn between two lovers, the one who is there for me and the one who sets me on fire with desire. First there was Andy, quiet dependable Andy who lives alone with his two dogs and his guitar. Andy who will chat online then using our secret code word ask me to visit him. I enjoy the thrill of my late night drives to his home where I will let myself in and find him pouring me a drink as we kiss.

Then there is Fred. Fred who lives just as far away in the other direction, fred who makes me wet just by thinking about him. Fred who always came to visit me in the day when he could escape from the office for a few hours. Fred who would have me swooning just by looking at me.

Then there was the night I had been exchanging text with Fred on and off through out the day, dropping hints that I would love to have some company, male company, sexy male company. But he went quiet on me until just after I had reluctantly accepted the invite from Andy.

on the way there were text messages

sometimes you make me want to scream!!

screaming I hope x

in my head but once in the car with my radio up loud i shall scream

lucky u x

at least someone wants to be with me

touche turtle x x

not lucky me but lucky him

must be u too or no reason to x

maybe you dont think he is lucky, he will make me feel wanted, then I wont need to scream

it was u said u not lucky and screaming is good for u
this only made me want to scream even more, why cant he see that it is him I want to be with
it is good to be with Andy as he holds me and kisses and bites me
he fills my aching body
he gives me back me confidence
the confidence Fred has been breaking down
the confidence that attracted him in the first place
but Andy does not make my heart lurch at the sight of him
he does not make me melt in his embrace
his kisses dont make my heart sing

But that was then, before the decision to stop seeing Andy which ultimately led to the end of seeing Fred too. Later came these others first my Sweetheart, the one I love so dearly, the one who gets right inside my head my heart my soul and my body. But my sweetheart cannot often be here with me. But on the sidelines there is Adam. Adam who has been in the background even before Andy was on the scene. Adam who wants me but doesn’t want me. He wants what I can give him that he can’t have with his life partner. Adam who begs me to meet him. Adam who will go to many lengths for a few hours holding me in his arms. Adam who is a sweet, sexy friend but he is not my sweetheart.

Adam began turning up the heat by writing a two part fantasy for me. Here are some excerpts from part one.

He felt the hot water run over his body as he massaged the soapy lather into his tanned skin. People always remarked on how brown his skin was given his industrial Caucasian roots. He noticed that he was still aroused and looked down at his………………….

Both he and she had wrestled with the moral issues and both had gave way to their respective thoughts in favour of a meeting.

She changed, as instructed, into a new pair of black 10 denier tights………………..

He led her by the hand and turned her so he was standing behind her and began to kiss her neck and…………………..

He sat on the bed and pulled her playfully across his knee and began to slap her arse – she seemed to enjoy it…………

She slid on her black seamed stockings and then sat astride him gently…………

He sat proud on the bed as she duly obliged and rolled the gossamer sheath over his erection

During an online chat he told me

i’m working hard to turn you on SN
i want you SN

i want my correspondence to turn you on, make you feel the need to play with yourself and think about my story as you do

Now with him turning the heat on like this it was becoming impossible to resist him, but however sexy he is and however much he knows how to turn me on I love my sweetheart and would never do anything that would hurt him. But boy has it been hard to keep from giving into such temptation.  

Sometimes a long distance relationship can be really hard to cope with especially when there is temptation close to home.

In my place would you give in to temptation or stay loyal to the one who holds my heart but isn’t here ?

Fred gets in on the act

Last week I shared with you how Adam had a desire to be my Master, he made a half hearted attempt at it but has a lot to learn. This evening a former lover, Fred came online for a chat. There is quite a bit of history between us and when we stopped being lovers just over a year ago it was very traumatic for me, I had not had a bust up with anyone in quite the way we did it. But suprisingly we managed to remain friends and every now and again we chat. For months it was about anything but sex, bit recently we turned a corner and can now talk about sex again.

Tonight after we had been chatting for a while the subject of sex came up and during the course of our conversation I began talking about Adam which led to me telling Fred about Adam trying to be my Master. To my suprise the conversation took a direction I would never have anticipated. 

 
hes trying to be masterful and make me his sub
hes  not very good at it though

deluded
lol

gave in to me far too quickly
lol

he told me I couldn’t cum until he next talks to me
perhaps you should go in for being a dom and making your fortune
I just said please and he caved
wimp
lol
I quite like being told what to do but I also like being bratish and not doing as im told
lol
but what about doing the tellling
when im in the mood
i think im what they call a switch
lol
too willfull to be a proper sub
but I guess no one has trully tried to dominate me
well there you go lo
mind you I think you would be good at it in a passive agressive way
thank you sweet lady
lol
you do things the way you want to do it no arguments but you do it in such a passive subtle way it might not be noticed that you are doing it
lol
i bet you have never been told that before
nope

perhaps you are not even aware you do it
prob not lol
I noticed it a couple of times
only a couple lol
lol I only saw you a few times
lol
that is waht i meant lol
that doesn’t leave much scope for more does it
lol
oh sure it does
are you arguing with me ?
oh yessssss
gloves on or off?
😛
on?? but no pants
ok go take em off then
how do you know they are on
i needed to know yours were off to make it fair
oh I see being masterful are we?
well for being naugty you are not allowed any underwear
now I was told earlier that I mustn’t wear any when I went to the cinema with my mum but I must have on some red silky ones by midnight
as my tits are uncovered dont see why yours shouldnt be
you have tits now do you?
well now you have a dilema please me or someone else
no but hey i have nipples
mine are sheathed in pnk satin
not allowed
 I know you do…..very nice for playing with
exactly just like yours are
so now are we even can we continue
yes sir
good better
yes sirsee there is scope for more
you are all compliant i hope not going to fight any more
throws water balloon at Fred

slap
slap
you think
slap
dont forget the child in me loves to play
absolutely but no playing tonight way too late
bend over
oh yes I forgot you like my arse

slap

one

or is that four

keeping you in suspense while you are bent over while i decide

I hope you are not going to procrastinate for long

finger nail running down the back of your thigh
hmmm not sure about that
then the other leg all the way to your foot
i think it will tickle
and make me trickle
you will will bloody well take it you naughty woman
yes sir
good
better
now the nails trace your spine
and down over your arse
but dont you dare move
no sir
not even a wiggle?
no
slap
slap
six
am i glowing red yet
nope
but you are dribbling
hey do you want a reminder
what a naughty wench
who says you coauld ask a quesion like that
slap slap slap slap
ten
photo
redness
from last summer
i will have a look at you to check so yes
and while i look i will flick your nipple
and i want no moaning or groans 
is your nipple tingling yet
its not the only part of me
so now i start on the right one
ouch
now both
got to make them tingle and erect
they are sir
i am not so sure are you lying to me
no sir
have you ever known me to lie to you?
i think they should be harder let me squeeze them
shut up
hmmmm my poor sensitive nipples
who gave you permission to speak
mmmm they are hard enough
sorry sir :-#
you are wet excited are you
:$
right
you know i am behind you now
:-O
hands along your back
round to cup your breats
no do not move
😀
penis sliding in between your arse cheeks
😀
do you feel me between your cheeks
your arse arapped around my legth
yes sir
very hard
good
do you like it there
yes sir
do you likeyour tits being played with
dont you remember sir?
i asked a question
answer it
yes sir
I do sir
good
do you want my shaft to be exploring rather than sitting between your cheeks
yes sir
well do you know i do not think you have been good enough today
i do not think you deserve it
what do you say to that
please sir
no
you know you want to sir
that is very presumptious and just the sort of thing i was talking about
when i said you have not been good enough
sorry sir
😦
so just for that my cock is being removed
i hands are taken away
no sir please don’t yu know how I love your cock
slap slap slap slap to each cheek
14
and i am leaving you in this possition for minutes to contemplate what your behavour has let slip
thank you sir
that should have 10 minutes
yes sir
this has not been aplease but a chore do you understand that
pleasure even lol
yes sir
thank you sir
good
so when ten mins are up you can straighten up touch yourself and bring yourself to orgasm
yes sir thank you sir
but no vibrator, dildo or any other mechanical help just your finger
ok
yes sir
good
i hope you have learnt your lesson
yes sir
i am off to bed now but you have to stay standing until i ahve been asleep for an hour
yes sir
then you may lie down but no touching
good night
no sir
good night sir

Now I don’t know about you but I feel that this was a much better effort than adam last week, even had me half convinced I should get together with Fred again even though I have vowed never to see him again.

Adam’s Desire

I have noticed over recent months that during our conversations Adam is turning more and more to wanting to be my Dom. I don’t think he has given this a whole lot of thought but it has started coming out in our conversations. I quite like being submissive even if I am a bit bratty at times. So this feeds a desire in both of us. It is a subject I have discussed with my sweetheart and whilst we both like the idea of him being Dom to my sub we are not prepared to take it as far as a 24/7 life style. From my reading I know that even in a long distance relationship it is possible to do this 24/7.  Both Adam and my sweetheart think of it more as a game to play as part of our sex games.

After my chat with Adam this evening where he suddenly went into Dom mode with no warning and when I asked him if he wanted to do that he said yes, I feel that he could do with some guidance. He was only half hearted in his Dominating me and when I challenged him he gave in to my request at the first time of asking. Adam does not read blogs although he does read the stories I send him from time to time. So if anyone can point me in the right direction for me to find some reading material for Adam it will be interestng to see if he follows it up and does become more Dominant.

So here is the transcript of our conversation once he changed into Dom mode.

you on all fours

  no

 

  why

 

 

what with?

a horse crop

 

 

mmmmm

spanking your bare bottom

 

in between fingering you

 

 

then i want you suck me

 

 

kneel on the floorwith you red heels and black seamed hold upstake my stiff cock in your mouthand suck it hardare you sucking ityes sirnow kneel on the bed on all fours

or i’ll spank you more

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

get your vibrator out

i want you to use it on me

slow or fast

slow to start on my balls and then inside me

mmmmmmmmmm

where are you if I am on all fours on the bed

in front of you

standing up on the floor

yes sir

fuck me with it before i fuck you with it

yes sir

then i want to fuck you in each hole

i want you to beg me to

yes sir I want you to fuck me in each hole

with my cock or vib

yes please sir

are you wet

yes sir

i need to go and cum now

please can I cum too sir?

no not until i mail you in the week again

you are not to cum

please sir

on one condition

yes sir

you promise me when we meet again you’ll wear black seamed hold up

yes sir

go then and make yourself cum

 

 

as if I didnt guess

 

 

i’ll have to spank you then

mmm

 

 

 

ooops where did my halo go?

For months he tempted and cajoled me. For months I procrastinated. Finally I made up my mind. I am going to be a good girl, not playing around, no giving in to temptation. I told him that I would never see him again. After all apart from that one drink so long ago, he was just a name on my screen or on my phone. There is no emotional tie, no physical person to give up, just words.

He accepted my decision but asked to meet for dinner (nothing else) just to say goodbye. He told me not to be dressed like the sexy woman he knows me to be. He didn’t want me to tempt him.

I knew as I was driving to the hotel that we would not keep our hands off each other but still we kept up the pretense. He ordered our drinks and we found a quiet table in the corner to sit and chat. Once we had finished our drinks he invited me back to his room for tea. As we walked side by side across the carpark, through reception and up the stairs, still chatting about unimportant things, I knew. I was ready for him, I had been anticipating this moment for so long, I could feel the scrap of material between my thighs getting damper by the minute.

Once we were through the door of his room he led me by the hand to the sofa. Sitting together thighs touching, he kissed me for the first time. I was willing his kisses to be good but not as good as my sweetheart. his hand holding my head to him as his kisses became more urgent. Shifting my weight so that I could throw my leg across his lap. The invitation he couldn’t ignore, my throbbing pussy screaming at him to accept the invite. Slowly he slides his hand up my leg enjoying the feel of the nylon I had worn especially for him.

Taunting me he deliberately takes his time getting to his goal, he wants to savour this moment, but I can’t take this any more, I need to get to the reason I am here. grabbing his wrist I direct his hand inside my skirt pushing his fingers towards the wet fabric, pressing it against my pussy. His kisses more urgent for just a moment longer before he pulls away to remove my clothes. My discarded top is quickly followed by the unclasping of my bra. Allowing the twin pendulums to be touched, kissed, licked and sucked. He has waned these babies for so long. But he only gives them a couple of minutes attention before he pulls me to my feet, tugging on my skirt until it pools around my feet. He moves to sit on the edge of the bed bringing me with him. He is pleased that I wore tights under my skirt. His fantasy involves tights more than stockings. I had considered not wearing anything under my tights but that would make it look like I had come prepared to have sex with him.

He is sitting naked apart from his black boxers as I stand before him, his fingers playing with each part of my body at his will. I am completely compliant to his will, whatever he wants I will do, he is my master for the time we are together. He is soon ready to pull me down beside him on the bed, he crawls between my legs playing with the damp nylon that covers my modesty. He looks at me with a question in his eye and grins like the cat that got the cream when I nod my agreement. He wastes no time ripping open the crotch of my  tights. This is what he has wanted to do to me for a year or more, his fingers find their way through the ripped threads, pushing aside my lace panties he has his fingers inside me at last.

Since that first time he told me he wanted to do this my pussy has ached for him. My resistance has kept us from fulfilling this fantasy for 12 months at least but here he is pressing, pulling, playing with my pussy as though it was an instruent and he the accomplished musician. That first touch of his naked skin on my hot pulsating lips brought the first trickle of juice flowing out of me. For soetime he played me, teasing trickle after trickle from my willing body. As each orgasm had me arching my back in breathless pleasure. One hand gripping the bedding by the handful the other firmly gripping his cock as he lay on his side, feet on the pillows and head by my thighs. He brings me off time and time again, such sweet release after all this wanting and resisting. When I have no more to give him he moves back to my side kissing and caressing me until hunger gets the better of both of us, quickly dressing we go off in search of the restaurant.

We have no plans to see each other again but you never know.